maybe a lot of your previous ideas suck, are expired and were rightfully abandoned. fulfilled its course by not fulfilling its course. not worth completing. you were playing it too safe, belonged to others anyway. it all belongs / goes back into the world eventually, out of your hands but not always through your hands.

the stuff worth devoting energy to are the things that:

expand imagination
increase hope + courage
make you forget the time in a good way instead of feeling it pass
improves goal-based performance
keeps vulnerable emotions accessible
operates from generosity
identities self, blockages, motivations
gives direction where/want you want to be good

curiosity instead of confusion, restoration instead of procrastination, purposeful scheduling instead of running in the rat race